It's a boy 😍 21 weeks today. The son we never thought we'd have is growing at lightning speed (80th percentile!) as is my girth. Somewhere in the past 5 weeks I've gone from 'what baby?' to 'whoaaa baby!'. A lovely colleague I hadn't seen in a few weeks cast her eyes over my enormous … Continue reading Pregnant and Fighting F*t
I wanted it to be a little bit special when we told the girls about the pregnancy. This was not planned, I didn't think they had seen it coming, and I felt it could go either way: be taken really well or really badly. I knew there would be anxiety about mummy's attention being pulled … Continue reading Telling the Girls- The Rest.
At 8 weeks on the dot, the day of our dating scan, I woke up more nauseated than usual. I put it down to nerves. I'd been lucky with the girls. I had never thrown up, and any nausea I had was mild and quickly relieved with food. I never needed to even consider medication. … Continue reading Telling the Girls- Part One
I don't know how to start this. I feel like I'm learning to write again after a hiatus of over 3 months. Three months. Where the hell did that time go? Three months ago I wrote about adulting fatigue. I'm so over adulting, I lamented. So over being boring and cautious, thinking ahead all the … Continue reading Curve Ball
https://youtu.be/jl0tADiwBz0 I've been in a funk lately, as detailed in this morning's blog offering about my adulting fatigue. Check out https://soulsearchinginsuburbia.com/2021/04/14/fatigue/ to feel my first world pain. I even missed last week's sing song and almost missed this week's, despite having gotten together with Dee for some soothing creative expression over the weekend. We were … Continue reading Tunes Tuesday…on Wednesday
Two years of breastfeeding wasn't enough, this child is still obsessed with my boobs. I have adulting fatigue today. And yesterday. And most of these school holidays to be honest. Perhaps that's why I've not written a word for 2 weeks. Or perhaps it's the other way around. I already know that writing every day … Continue reading Fatigue
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JTWXBtq5aYg "And I know I don't possess you, with all my heart, God bless you." I adore this song. The girls and I have been listening to the Mamma Mia 2 soundtrack on high rotation, not for the first time. We all love ABBA (how can you not?!), we love Mamma Mia 1 and 2 … Continue reading Tunes Tuesday: My Love, My Life
Photo by Ketut Subiyanto on Pexels.com Losing weight is such a fraught endeavour. I've written extensively about my struggle with this before, in particular; the terrible shame around the hypocrisy of trying to mindfully raise girls who like and accept their whole selves, body heart and soul- when I cannot honestly claim to be one, … Continue reading Thigh Gap Pride: May we all please call BS.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DR-3P9zIMhM&t=14s Keeping it real with my holey nightie and messy lounge ❤ It's Tunes Tuesday, and until 4:30 this afternoon I had no idea what I was going to record. I could have let it go. I'm feeling a bit blocked up, had slept 4.5 hours in 36 hours and was pretty tired after night … Continue reading Tunes Tuesday- I Can’t Stand the Rain
I came to midwifery much later in life, beginning study at 30 years of age when my eldest was just 1, and graduating 5 years later when my youngest was just shy of 3. It was a gruelling path and I would not have stuck to it through all the trials, tribulations, sacrifice and anxiety … Continue reading Midwife Emerging.